If there was a way to explain,
Words to describe,
Gestures to illustrate
This gnawing hollowness within me
There is some entity
Nesting within my Cimmerian depths.
Taking upon a grotesque appearance;
A manifestation of nightmares.
Insomnia eats away at the nights
Sleep deprivation, the days.
Paranoia stalks from the shadows
Darkness lunges trying to trip.
Striving to inflict pain
And exults from victory.
Smaragdine expanses keep them at bay.
Even then whispers thunder
Deafening the fragile ears.
Wind shatters from sheer thrust
Rain pounds down to wash,
Stains so black,
So melanoid refuses to fade.
Thick obsidian glass blocks view.
You trend upon an obscure path.
Years of barren conquests
But finally, the answer came to light
“Everyone has it, but no one can lose it”
Trapped within lead
Chained in potassium
Fragile but explosive
Alluring but corrosive.
The most sinful thing of all is
She loves the darkness that fills her
She lives on chaos
For pain & sorrow.
There was purity
Clear as crystal
Her love could breathe life
Her care could heal wounded & broken
Her will could cleanse
Her passion could raise lost souls
Concoction of all these gave birth to
A girl with a crown of roses and thorns upon her head.
With mellow brown eyes
Those that would fade to a shade of platinum
Or darken to jet black veined with red
She is the entity living within
Breathing the same air
Blood flowing through the same veins
“Everyone has it, but no one can lose it.”
That girl, the entity?
That girl is me.